After school went over to fareast with mum . Bought 2 belts and my school shoes .


Living without you

I keep looking in all the places ,
Where you are suppose to be .
But i never seem to find you ,
And you're all I long to see .

I just can't seem to understand ,
What it was that changed your mind .
All this time i thought i knew you ,
When really , i was blind .

But i know that i don't hate you ,
And i know i never will .
Because i cared about you then ,
And i care about you still .

Even though you hurt me ,
I can't seem to let you go .
But i will still go on without you ,
And I wanted to make sure you know .

It will take some time to mend ,
The damage that you've done .
But broken hearts do heal ,
That's where strentgh comes from .

For now , the tears may be falling ,
And my thoughts keep circling to you .
But soon , things will get better ,
If you have hope , then they always do .


[update ] :
Fetched miumiu from the vet , she just had her operation to take out her womb , so she can't have babies anymore . I said it was cruel but mum insisted on letting her go for the operation , she said it was for her own good .


Know what ? Now i just felt like screaming , and standing in the rain . It's so freaking cold tonight without you .


I miss your smell , i miss your breath . I miss you sleeping beside me the whole night , and you appearing right before my eyes the next morning .